comment apprécier la vie quand c'est toi qui me manques?

don't read anything into that...it's just a song i'm listening to right now. if you don't know what it means, it's how can i appreciate life when it's you that i lack...or something like that. a lot of the real meaning gets lost in translation =/ okay on second thoughts, read everything into that...

i had my hair cut yesterday morning, after like about 9 months. it wasnt heaps long, and now it isnt heaps short either. it's just layered in places and stuff. the last time i had it cut was before we went to switzerland cuz i didnt want the hassle of having to wash my then kinda long hair every other day when it was all cold and things. then i didnt get it cut cuz my cousin's wedding was coming up, and long hair is easier to deal with. then i didnt get it cut because we were going to phuket and i wanted to get it braided and have really long braids and things. then the damn tsunami had to hit, and we cancelled out trip.

it still kinda freaks me out a little. i mean, if nothing had happened on the 26th, we woulda left for phuket today morning. i'd be there right now. tonight we would have been staying in a hotel that's RIGHT on patong beach. anything could have happened. it could have been tomorrow morning instead of last month.

i feel the saddest for the tourists who went on holiday and never came back. or came back in a box. or in pieces. or came back without a child, or without a parent. a member of their family gone forever. how do you even begin to deal with something like that?? it's incomprehensible. i wouldnt wish that on a person i hate with everything i have, even.

okay i can't think about this anymore.

song for today - remember to breathe by dashboard confessional